miracles

This week I have been thinking a lot of about the miracles in our lives.  We went to the Cookeville miracle this last week for mutual and it was so good.  It really makes you think about life when you hear some of the stories and miracles that others have gone through in this life.  I know that we have miracles happen all around us every day.  I know that we are so blessed to have people from the other side watch over and help protect us every day.  It made me start to think about all the miracles that we have seen with the tragedy that we went through with Chris's family.  I know that there was a lot of miracles and I know that we had help that day.  I wanted to write some of them down so they are not forgotten.
Josylnn and Tate were pushed out of the way of the snow falling.
The fact that I didn't go up.  There could have been ten kids under all that snow and impossible to save them all.  I do have guilt about that also because I feel that if I had have gone I could have been there to help them find Halle.
Chris was outside and was able to start looking for them right away.
Chris was able to have the strength to look for them and work as long and as hard as he did with his health
Sara thinking to call the gas station for help and how fast people came to help.
Ava and Tessa both being ok.  They are such a miracle and for the amount of time they were under the snow they should have been gone.
I know that there were so many more.  I know that we are blessed but it is hard to not understand why we couldn't have had one more miracle.  Why isn't Halle still with us.  Why not one more.
Cindy had a dream or a feeling before Christmas that she was going to lose Halle.  She has felt that it was her time.   She told Annette that if it wasn't this way... it would have happened some other way.  It is hard to understand right now why.  

The day after the funeral we were able to come home and go to the temple and do baptisms for the dead.  I was praying for a feeling of peace and to help me feel better.  It didn't bring the feelings I was wanting or needing but it was still good to go and be there with our yw/ and with my girl.  

we were able to go to dinner after the baptisms and have a nice meal with the girls.  It was a good day.