The worst nightmare

My little stud muffin.  He is such a joy in my life.  I love watching him play and learn.  He is such a boy and is so much fun.  WE all just love him to pieces.  

Elizabeth had a tournament in Soda Springs.  It was so good for her team to play because all year they played a grade up so they didn't win any games at all.  It was so hard for them to keep losing and not feel like they were doing very well.  It was so fun to see the excitement when they kept winning and were playing so well against girls their own age.  It was a bummer that in the first game Elizabeth fell and sprained her ankle but she was so tough and kept playing without any problems.  She played better than she has ever played and made I think 10 points in one of her games.  It was so fun to watch her.  On the way to Soda I had talked to Annette on the phone and we had talked about getting tighter that weekend and hanging out. Brad and Sara were in town and so I wanted to make sure I was going to be able to see them.  She called to let me know that she had decided to go with Chris and Cindy to their cabin with some of the kids and that we should meet them up there.  I knew that we had the tournament both days and that it wasn't going to work very easy but I had a feeling like I should or wanted to but I pushed it off and told Ryan I didn't want to go.  

It was a totally normal day and we were having so much fun.  Ryan was even playing and being silly on snapchat with me.  Ha ha

On the ride home I was in the back just having a little nap when my phone came into service and all of a sudden my text alerts went off again and again.  I saw the first one say, "we have kids buried in the snow.  We need prayers please."  I didn't know what to think of it.  I called my dad and he said that the kids were playing by the older cabin and that snow had fallen of off the roof onto Tessa, Ava and Halle.  They had found Ava and thought that her legs were broken and they were trying to revive Tessa and they still had not found Halle.  I couldn't breath or think or talk.  Elizabeth and Ryan were both wondering what was going on.  I have never felt such a horrible pain in my chest and so sick to my stomach.  I couldn't breath and felt like I was going to pass out.  I started to pray that everything was going to be ok.  I prayed that they would find Halle and she would be ok.  Our family has seen miracles and we needed to see them again.  I believed it and wanted that so bad.  We got to our house and I felt so helpless.  I had gotten a few texts saying that they had revived Tessa and they were working on the girls.  There was three life flights and that they were still looking for Halle.  I wanted to be there helping so bad and wanted to have everything be fine.  I want a dang rewind button so that nothing like this would have ever happened.  We said a prayer as a family and soon after that I got a text saying that they had found Halle.  I was so happy and felt such relief.  I told Ryan I was going to go and meet them at the hospital and then when they said that I thought we had a miracle and everything was fine.  There was other text saying that they had gotten a heartbeat and that they got her breathing a few times.  I was so happy.   

I jumped in my car without packing a single thing and went to meet them at the hospital.  I got to the hospital before some of the people at the cabin.  I didn't think I was driving to fast but I guess I must have been.  The text I got right when I pulled into the hospital was "they have a heartbeat!"  I wanted to do a cartwheel I was so happy.  I ran to the emergency room and I saw ava.  She looked beat up but she was doing good and wasn't in pain anymore.  They had her on meds and she was doing really good.  I walked around the corner and I saw little Halle in the room being worked on.  Cindy walked out and looked at me and said, "my baby is gone".  I didn't want to hear that at all.  That is not what I was thinking at all.  I looked at her and said, "NO, She is going to be ok."  Cindy just said, "Jill, it's been to long."  She went into the room with Tessa and Chris and the doctors continued to work on Halle in the other room.  There was so much family there and so many faces but it felt weird and I wanted to be alone in a way.  It really was a out of body experience.  When Halle was gone I knew.  They stopped working on her and started to push us into a room to talk to us.  They told us that there was to much trama to her head and body and that she had gone to long without oxygen.  They had done everything they could.  At that time I walked out of the room and lost it.  I looked down the hall and saw Annette and as soon as she saw me she knew what was going on.  She fell to the ground and lost it just like I had.  I have never felt a pain more than what I had felt and felt more sick than this.  It is a pain that is unexplainable and worse than anything in the world.  I can't even imagine how Chris and Cindy must feel and must have felt at this time.  No one loved her more than them and no one knew her better than them.  She was such a amazing girl and it just hurt so bad to lose her.  

Someone went up after and took these pictures of the snow that had fallen off the roof.  Being away I couldn't imagine how they couldn't find them but when you see this you understand why it was so hard and how it could do so much damage.  

The snow was over 7 feet high where the girls were buried.  I know that there were so many miracles that day and I just wish there could have been one more.  It is so hard to understand right now.... WHY.  The miracles that we saw that day were that there was five kids outside together and only three of them were buried.  Joslynn was with them when it happened and she said that she felt as if she was pushed out of the way of the snow.  Tate was also with the kids and he is only 3 years old.  He has also talked about it a lot and we know that he was also protected and saved from being buried in the snow.  As soon as Chris ran over to start digging in the snow Joslynn went to him and said, "they are not there Chris, and then she pointed to where Tessa and Ava were buried.  She helped Chris find them and save them. It took Chris 27 minutes to find them.  They were a miracle that they were still ok.  Tessa was gone but they were able to bring her back.  Brad said that after 17 minutes you are dead.  Ava told us when we asked her how she was under the snow and she said her hands were stuck and she couldn't move but she started to bite the snow and she was going to eat her way out.  She is so funny and that could have saved her life and given her enough room.  

Chris is the one that found Ava and Tessa and he wasn't going to stop until he found them all.  He is a hero and he saved the two girls.   He is amazing and was out in the snow with no gloves and no shoes digging and he wasn't going to stop.  Help arrived as he pulled Tessa out and Cindy gave her CPR and then later a man that came to help also gave Tessa CPR.  Sara had called the gas station and had told them to get anyone that could help over to the cabin to help.  They had so many people show up to help and were working so hard to find Halle.  It took them 45 minutes to find Halle and they worked so hard to save her.  We all wanted her to be ok and wanted the nightmare to not be real.  

Ava and Tessa stayed int he hospital for three days and were checked on to make sure they were alright.  They are both a huge miracle to have no serious injuries.  Ava was so funny in the hospital and enjoyed being taken care of.  She had a hard time walking so she was able to ride in a cool wheelchair.  She loved getting on her little call button and asking them to "bring me a popsicle."  

I wasn't able to go to the second day of Basketball for Elizabeth and they took first place in the tournament.  She got a trophy and a metal.  She was so proud and I was also so proud of them. 

Rob was showing off his skills in the wheelchair and so Brad thought he could show off also.  I was so mad because I had my phone out but didn't record Brad pop a wheely and then tip over.  It was so funny.  

My parents came home from their mission and were able to be there for us and for Chris and Cindy.  I was so happy to see them and felt so much comfort and peace having my parents home.  I am so thankful for them and so thankful for their guidance and love. They were they support that we all needed at this time.  

Tessa and Ava headed home and were 100% healthy and strong and we are so thankful for that .