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Lizzy is starting to take selfies just like her big sister.... ha ha.  a little while ago alexis asked her why she didn't take any and liz just said, "i am so horrible at taking selfies."  so I guess it does take some talent to get good at them ha ha.  We made a joke and told Alexis that she had to limit herself to only 10 selfies a day.  

Liz took this one and put it on my screen saver on my phone.  It was nice because she left me for a week and a half to go play with Mia in Canada and so I was missing her and loved seeing her face.  

Best buds

Annette came and saw me and we worked on a graduation slideshow for summer.  It was funny because It brings up so much emotions when you are watching someone's pictures with music.  I cried a few times.  Summer has always been like my girl.  I have always just loved her like a mom.  She is getting so grown up and is so fun to hangout with.  She has so much potential and I am so excited to see what she chooses to do with her life.  

She had a great turn out for her party and I helped decorate.... it was fabulous.  

My grandma is so awesome.  I love her so much

It was also the week before memorial day weekend . Chris took this picture of Haleys grave.  He planted them in a H for Haley.  It is still so hard for me to think about Haley being gone and all the horrible that has happened.  It has forever changed me and I am still trying to work through all these new feelings that I have and don't know who I am some days.  I hate the way things have changed especially me.  I have had a hard time with just feeling the spirit even and that has been hard for me to understand.  It seems like in times like this we should have it with us the most.  But who knows maybe it is trying but what is going on with my emotions and sadness is preventing me from feeling it.  I am not sure.  I don't want it to effect my kids in anyway and want them to still have a mom that they know loves them and is happy.  I know that I have pushed Ryan away and I can not figure out why I am doing it.  Like I said I can not figure all this out.... I hope he doesn't get sick of me being a turd and can stick with me while I find myself again.  

I am so proud of my girls.  Elizabeth was on the honor roll and got a couple of awards.  She didn't want me to take her picture and post it.... but I have to.  She is such a good girl and I am so proud of her.  Alexis did awesome this year also and had all A's except two B's.  She did a lot of it by herself and I didn't have to help her hardly at all this year.  Brytlee is also doing great and got all A's.  I am so proud of my girls and the hard work they put into school.  I hope they keep it up and respect their teachers and keep being good students . 

This little boy always has dirt and scabs on his face... he likes to be outside all day long. 

He also loves to play in the dirt can't you tell.  

Look at that dirt on his face and he doesn't care at all.  

One selfie.... ha ha

Dad is reading max a book about airplanes.  He was in heaven.  Such a boy!  he loves balls, cars, trucks, dirt, planes. and all the boy stuff.  He saw a doll in the store the other day and he pointed at it and said, "Adi's"  He knows they are not his I guess.  But then he goes crazy when he see's the boy stuff.  Having a boy is so much fun and I just love him so much. 

2 Selfies.... This was on her birthday so I guess it was ok.   She turned 14 this year and we went on a date for her birthday.  It was so fun to go and hang out with her just one on one.  The kids all act super sweet and nice when you are on a date so it is something I look forward to.  We went to a bunch of stores and ate at the olive garden.  After we were over the limit on her I had to go run around for me and she didn't love that.  

WE went to lowes and she was so board.. She was very entertaining though.  

Alexis is such a sweet girl and I am so glad she is my daughter.  I don't know what I would do without her.  She helps me out with so many different things.  Most of the time she complains but it is even better when she does it on her own.  She is at the age that her friends are everything to her and she is a roller coaster of emotions.  Girl drama is fur real.  I pray that we can make it through high school without to much more.  She has great friends and loves to be a social little butterfly.  She is so good at sports and is good at anything she tries.  She is so smart but is very hard on herself.  She is just amazing to me and I love her so much.  So lucky to be her mom.

I let her have a party and it was a lot of fun.  She had boys and girls this year and it wasn't to crazy.  The kids were all nice and they stayed outside for the most part so not to much of a mess to clean up.